My Racing Thoughts on a Monday Morning

My thoughts are going a million miles an hour....Whoa Nelly (my brain) SLOW down! So quickly, for myself, I will recap last week:

I started to point my blog a different direction. It's painful so I don't know how often I will spill my guts yet. Last week I really didn't get much me time as far as being able to exercise, hopefully this week will be better. Tootsie is going back to school tomorrow.

I feel like I did accomplish more as far as my house goes last week.

I did make time for some fun last week, we went to the homecoming parade, Aguado and I watched 2 late night movies after the kids went to bed. Survivor started, and the Office was new!!! Oh and there is a new show on called Worst Week, sooo funny! I know it sounds like we watch a lot of TV, TIVO makes it go by so much faster though cause you can skip the commercials.

Aguado finally got word of his promotion last week! He will now be doing more sales (which is what he loves) He will be getting away from the HR part of his job which he doesn't love so much. He really didn't like hiring firing of writing people up. He will still be managing, but he will be managing District Managers, and only 3-5 instead of 20 drivers. And hallelujah he gets a company car, no more miles on our cars! We are so blessed. It is crazy to think of the turmoil our life was just a year ago, it goes to show things happen for a reason. Still trying to figure out why the tornado, but this is a happy paragraph so moving on...

I have a so-so busy week ahead, Young Women, our activity is taking the girls to shoot 22's, hmm should be fun then we have Pres meeting after. on Wed, I am cleaning for my friend, and also I get to start my volunteering in tootsie class room. I will go once a week to help in reading.
I really need to go to weight watchers sometime this week and get all signed up. Oh and my hair, I have got to get it taken care of too! Hopefully I can get all exercise in too. As far as my weight goes, my motto is Faith without Works is dead.....Gotta have faith and believe in myself and gotta make an effort....the hardest part is making the time, and remembering to remember, i love exercising it's in my blood, i just have to stop sweating the things that aren't getting done. Make sense? hmmm...doubt it, but I know what I am talking about!

Hope you all can smile about many things today! ~E

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on." — Robert Frost

Home

We made it home! We were glad to get back to our kids, we always miss them. I don't think we could ever leave them to go on a cruise or somewhere far and for more than a couple of days. We had a lovely time! The weather was fantastic, the fall colors are wonderful! We took the jeep, and of course left the top off. It is so much fun to ride in. We stayed at the Little America in SLC. It is a beautiful Hotel. It has really good food, BUT, let's just say I am glad it wasn't my 200.00 buck-a-roos that paid for the room. It was exquisitely decorated with antique French chic furnishings. The bed though, was horrific! I am not kidding the hardest thing I have ever slept in, well I didn't sleep cause it made every muscle ache. Aguado couldn't sleep either, and I can only sleep when I hear him snoring. At 2:30 am I seriously wanted to just go home. No more complaints though, the dinner we had was nice. Aguado's boss went all out. I had steak and salmon and there were hors d' oeuvres , some being snails...ewww. Ya know there is a fancy name for them but I cant remember what it is, YUCK! Besides the bugs, everything was really good. Saturday we went to Gardner Village, I didn't buy anything but started getting ideas of how I want to decorate my house. Aguado was a very good sport to walk around the place even though he was so bored. We also saw a movie, not proud of our choice, but I must say that Brad Pitt needs to be in more comedies, cause he is SO Funny!

I think the best part of the weekend, (besides being with aguado alone for a change) was just being able to people watch. It is one of my favorite things to do. I don't get to do it as much as I used to, well scratch that, I do it alot. It's just that I mostly just "Watch" my kids. I also just got to do what I wanted at my own pace, that is always very nice. So to close I am going to do a list of my experience this weekend:

Music I heard, listened to...

Pearl Jam "Better Man"
Bush
Wheezer
Coldplay the new cd
metallica the new cd
Elevator Music
Frank Sinatra
alanis morrisette
U2
John Mayer
Steve Miller Band
Tracy Chapman


Things I ate..

steak
salmon
baked potato
Dr. Pepper
Broccoli
Crab Cake
Cheese Cake
Strawberries
Raspberries
Cantaloupe
Pineapple
popcorn
turnips
green salad, very green with many different kinds of leaves
dinner roll
You get the point....too much food


People around me that made impressions on me

Sales man at breakfast who was pitching advertising, his name was Bill and he looked like Bill Clinton
Aguado's Boss, very nice man
3 men sitting at a table eating, they were all speaking German, I wondered what they were saying
Punk Kid who took our movie tickets, he had quarter sized pierced ear lobes, ouch....
Lady at wal-mart, who was kind and polite when I almost ran my cart into her

decorations i would like for my house

A white bead board desk for Tootsies room
2 lamps with black and white shades for my room
a Christmas tree with lots of red berries on it
A wall box (wooden, black) for a Plasma TV
A Kitchen table that seats 8
Beautiful black book cases for all of my books

other random things I enjoyed this weekend

Opening the door to the balcony at the hotel and listening to the sounds of the city at night
The new Legacy Highway
Going to Tai Pan for the first time ever.
My cute Husband and his sense of humor
Listening to Lollie sleep right now as I type
Driving through Sardine Canyon
taking a bath for longer than 7 minutes
watching the debate, being somewhat impressed with the candidate I will probably vote for

enough time for bed....~E

Happy Friday!!!!

Oh I love Fridays...I know, I know ya'll totally know this but, I just have to say it.

So, even though ANOTHER big bank collapsed today, and even though the future of our country is up in the air ( which I really am concearned about) I am so thankful for all that I have. Mostly the Gospel of Jesus Christ, because I know that no matter how bad things get, my faith will get me through. Time and time again my little family has made it through the storm, certainly not unscathed, but always protected from the brunt.

Moving forward.... Here is my weekend list!



Why this weekend is going to be fabulous....

1. Aguado and I get to go have fun by ourselves for the first time in a year!
2. I will not have a baby sleeping on my left arm all night!
3. I don't have to make dinner tonight
4. I get to go to SLC, and I haven't been there for a long while!
5. The weather is going to be beautiful
6. I think the whole family will be able to attend church on Sunday, I believe tootsie should be up to it!

Things to do before we take off to SLC...

1. hurry and clean the bathrooms and make the beds, I hate leaving a mess.
2. Get the dishes done and run the disposal
3. Put on something cute, (get out of my grubs )
4. pack bags for kids and put instuctions down on paper
5. pick out some books to take and read!

Things we want to do in SLC

1. Go to the Gateway
2. See a movie
3. have lunch at the garden place (can't remember the exact name) it's on top of one of the church buildings.
4. do what we want, when we want on our own schedules!

People I am thinking about and praying for..
1. Sophia
2. My kiddies
3. My Dad

Things that will still be here when I get back

1. Flys
2. anything I don't get done

Things I am going to worry about

1. nothing

have a nice weekend friends, ~E

Homecoming, Tonsils Round 2, Weekend Getaway

Took Whiz to the ENT yesterday to have the abscess on the back of his throat looked at. It is always an adventure whenever we have to take him somewhere that they might have to touch him with an instrument and examine. Dentist, doctor, it doesn't matter he will ask 100 questions before he fully cooperates, they'll just get him to be quiet and open his mouth when he'll throw his finger in the air and say 1 minute....and ask another question. I decided to make Aguado come too, because he deserves to know how embarrassing it can be when you can't control a thing that comes out of your kids mouth. So, the verdict is that they need to biopsy the abscess so they might as well take the tonsils while they are at it they looked pretty bad anyway. I have 12 days to prepare myself. I don't know how well he will do, hoping for fabulous.

Last night was the good, old, Sky View homecoming parade! This is the first one I have been to since my sister was homecoming queen, I think Whiz was a baby, so long time. It was fun to watch Tootsie and my niece and nephew having fun. Whiz went with his buddies on their bikes so I didn't get to watch him, I can't believe how old he is getting! So, the parade, HOLY. COW. I think there definitely are more clubs these days in high school! I think that is great, I think everyone should be able to be in the parade.

I will probably get in trouble for this but, Aguado is getting promoted, Yeah for him. Don't say anything to him about it because he will totally down play it...anyway, his boss has invited us to SLC for dinner Friday night and is putting us up in a hotel. I am in need of a getaway, so I am very excited. I don't know what we will do, maybe a movie and window shopping. Who knows, it will be very relaxing!

"Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous." — Albert Einstein (The World As I See It)

"All the darkness in the world can't extinguish the light from a single candle." — St. Francis Of Assisi (The Little Flowers of St. Francis of Assisi)

Thanks!

Just wanted to thank everyone for the emails, it means a lot to know that there are people out there who care. Yesterdays post was very hard and i am still wanting to go in and delete it but, I don't think I will. Aguado just thinks I am going crazy, maybe so!

Things at my house feel like they are imploading at the moment (is imploading a word) anyway, Tonsils, diapers, clutter, whiz's attitude....pray for me!!! I'll post later;)

Hope ya'll have a god day ~E

Day 6

Today is for sure Tooties hardest day and it's only 10 am. Her throat hurts but also her ears. I hate when my kids cry and are miserable, it's so hard to watch. To think I was hoping she would be able to go to school today....What was I thinking?!?

So it's raining today, I enjoy the rain occasionally, for some reason I feel like life slows down a few paces on a rainy day. Today I am just hoping to get the dishes done and get Minestrone soup made for dinner. At the moment Tootsie is sitting above me practicing her hair braiding skills on my head, good thing I have a tough head!

My very first post I alluded to taking my blog in a different direction, I am still planning this, sort of. Let me explain, Most of you who know me, know that I have struggled with my weight for the last 10 years. I have tried many things, gotten my hopes up about finding answers only to have my heart broken. My biggest fear in life is that I will never stop gaining. I have always said I wish my problem was that I ate a lot, or that I don't exercise, because if they were I feel like I would be in control of the situation. I have talked about this with a few people, and really it doesn't help. Even some of the closest people to me just don't get it. I had someone tell me I was big boned....which is not true, I actually am very small in bone structure. I have been pretty average sized my whole life up until I had Hayden. I had major complications with Hayden, my kidneys shut down, my liver shut down, I gained the bulk of my weight the last 3 months of the pregnancy. None of this helped with things, but, I also believe most of my trouble is coming from my own mind...I come from a family of beautiful people, My Mom, Dad, sisters, grandparents aunts uncles cousins. I don't think there are any obese genes for many generations back. I grew up average as I said, but not tiny, like most in my family. My mom weighed like 105 pregnant with me. I always felt to big, in reality I was being way too hard on myself. In High School and even Middle School I could go days with only having 1 bagel a day to eat. My parents were both very weight conscious, my mom tried every wonder diet out there so she could go from 135 pounds to 115. Also another person who was very close to me was always very prejudice and and derogatory toward Fat women. So even at a very young age I was self conscious and did not want to ever turn out Fat. In my mind it was my biggest fear, and I believe Fear is poison to the mind, body and spirit. I also believe that being a pretty girl growing up hurt me. Boys and Girls were so mean to me, to this day I still get sick when I think of how mean girls can be and were. I also got way to much attention from older boys and men. I couldn't go anywhere without being eyed down, stared at, or even I would have gross gestures made at me. I felt dirty and gross. So many times growing up I just wanted to be invisible....I truly think that my sub concence mind has made that happen, made it a reality. There is something about being fat that protects me, makes me feel safe.

I have been thinking long and hard. I have prayed many hours, and I believe the answer to my weight issues are here in my head somewhere. I believe that only i have the ability to fix it, this is why I am doing it now, through blogging. I struggled with keeping my blog open to whoever, but, you know what....there could be someone out there just like me who has or is going through a similar trial. It's not just about weight, the weight is just a bi-product of my thinking, it could be something completely different for someone else. The point is if I can help someone while helping myself, all the better.

Here are my goals:

Let go of my fears
love who I am
forgive myself and others
remove negative with positive
don't ever give up

Physical goals:
I am not putting a weight goal, I just want to be able to feel good about myself.
I will keep my diet in check, 2 carbs bf and lunch 5 carbs at dinner. No eating after 7.
I will exercise 6x a week, rotating many different workouts for variety.

I will use my blog as an outlet, ups, downs, triumphs, and falls. For those that read my blog to keep up on my Fam, I will still post that stuff too. I will somehow figure out how to differentiate my posts. So you can only read what you are interested in.

I know that there will be and are those out there who are judging me, I pray your heart will be softened.

Enough for now ~E


"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.' You must do the thing you think you cannot do." — Eleanor Roosevelt

Sunday Morning, as always chaotic....

Never fails at our house, Satan always tries to make himself known on Sunday Mornings! And I have to say he never prevails, we always make it out the door to church! I spent the morning getting my lesson ready. Before I knew ,my prep time was running out. I made cookies for my girls because they always seem to listen and talk more when they are eating treats. I grabbed a shower in 9 min while I had cookies in the oven. at this point things were going well, BUT, things change quickly. We have 700 Binky's (exaggeration). More like 15, anyways, we couldn't fined ONE, not One! We were all looking frantically as Lollie was screaming like there was no tomorrow. It took 20 min to find 3 Binky's which happened to all be together under a piece of furniture. Never new a Binky could make or brake a peaceful Sunday mood.

As for my lesson, It was about avoiding dishonesty, wonderful refresher for me. dishonesty is Satan's snare to get us where he wants us. Being honest is one of the most basics concepts and attributes of Jesus Christ. It affects all aspects of life. How you view others, how others view you, how you view yourself. It directly affects our happiness, and the happiness of the people that we love.

On another Gospel note this is a link to a story about Mary and Martha if you were wondering who they were and who you identify with.

I have to bring my post to a close now because whiz is right over my shoulder trying to take my laptop. I am going to go for a bike ride, chow ~E

"Sometimes we have to choose between what is right and what is easy. --Albus Dumbledore" — J.K. Rowling

E's To Do List Before She can Play....

Pick up the WHOLE house...Seriously. Whats. New.
Go shopping...Grocery
Prepare Lesson for Sunday....it on Honesty
Go on a bike ride...with whiz
Make dinner for today and tomorrow ...spaghetti tonight, Roast tomorrow
sneak away and get a hair cut
I would really love to go on a jeep ride up the canyon
I would also really like to see a movie, don't really care what movie it is....well a grown up movie

Here's a quote for the day:



"Women are like teabags, you never know how strong they are until they're put in hot water." — Eleanor Roosevelt

It's .....FRIDAY....My fave!

I can't let Friday get away from me without acknowledging it! Here is a list of why Friday is number 1!

People are so friendly on Friday's, the bank lady, the telemarketer, the post lady. Mondays are quite the opposite.

Kids only have half a day!'

Whiz comes home with a smile on his face!

You can look forward to Saturday!

Date night (except for when you have a child home cause she just got her tonsils out.)

No, Homework, No Bedtime, No whining!

Take-Out night....No dastardly cooking (even though I am pretty good at it,LOL)

No cooking=No huge mess to clean up!

Hoping Ya'll have a nice weekend! ~E

~E's Best Friend

So this is Oscar. He is our 4th dog. His birthday is sometime this month so I thought I would share a little about my furry "little heaven" (when he is bad he is "little he!!"). First I have to preface by listing the other dogs from our past. Billie was a lab, not the smartest dog but she was a baby with gracie and they used to snuggle together. She is now with Aguado's sis. Bobbie was our next dog. She was a boxer. We LOVED her. She was a huge part of the family. When Aguado was put over the state of Nevada he was gone a lot. She was my companion. Always slept with me and kept us safe. One morning she bit this guy that was looking in our front door, so sadly we had to put her down, it devastated all of us. Our next dog was St. Pepper Jack. He was a black mini schnauzer, sadly he fell through the ice in an Iowa river and drowned this past January. I don't think I have ever or will ever cry so hard, it was harder than the tornado. I watched him drown, and I couldn't do anything. I would have jumped in, but I was pregnant so I couldn't.

Now Oscar, he was peppers best friend. He had been through 2 other families when we got him. When pepper dies he was so sad. He became glued to me. As you all know I got really lonely sometimes in Iowa he took care of me! When my sugars would go low, he'd lick my face. So in Oscar's short 2 yrs he has been through 3 families, moved to Iowa, Lost his best friend, survived a tornado, moved back to Utah then welcomed a new baby in to the house. He likes Lollie, but, he doesn't like competing for my attention! He feels a little neglected.LOL, I am posting a pic of him in Lollies chair, and Lollie is on the floor! He thinks he owns it all. Happy b-day oosk!

Finally.

Tootsie has finally gotten her tonsils out. I have been more nervous about it than her. She was actually so excited. i really thought her excitement was a disaster waiting to happen, but, as it happens she is doing fantastic. Today I do think things will start going down hill just a bit as the Iv meds start tapering off though. Cool thing about yesterday was Grandpa Chuck was also having surgery so it made for a great photo opp.

Funny side story here.....My mom had to get chuck to the hospital by 5:45, so needless to say she was pretty groggy. Anywoo- when we arrived my friend at registration proceeded to tell us that my mom had tripped and fell and caught the chair and basically went flying. Now I know it is so totally rude to laugh but OHHHH, if I could have been there to see it I think it would have made my whole month. My friend was still laughing when we got there 15 minutes after it happened. LOL, sorry mom don't be mad, just feel the love;)You know you are one of my favorite people!

Last night my wonderful friend Sophia brought us dinner. It was such a blessing, I didn't realize how much we would need it. I have to say it was REALLY. REALLY. GOOD! Even picky Whiz couldn't stop. She also brought great brownies, i was very impressed because they tasted just like my homemade recipe! It is rare that I find anyone who makes a similar recipe! They were dangerously good! Thanks Sophia, I know you have a lot going on, which makes your service even more appreciated!

That's all for now, have a great day Peeps! ~E

He's Alive!

Wes got home from Moab lateSunday night. I think he had a blast. I am so glad that everyone was safe. He took some great pics. I actully posted them down below but the slid show does not do them justis so I am going to post some here too. Back Later ~E

We Must Protect Our Children!

Check this out, I never watch daytime TV. But today Opera had very important subject matter on her show, protecting our children from predators....YOU MUST GO HERE AND DO YOUR SHARE! Very simple do it now, I did it you can to! Thanks ~E

Tagged

The # 8 Tagged by Janalyn
8 Things I am Passionate About:

1) Aguado 2) My Kids 3) The Rest of My Family 4) My Testimony of Jesus Christ 5) My Dog Oscar 7)The Weather 8) Serving Others

8 Words or Phrases I Say Often:
1) Come on 2) Son of a Gun 3) serious? 4) STOP YELLING 5)wash your freakin hands 6) No Way 7) Hmmm 8) Stop Fighting

8 Things I want to do before I Die:
1) Loose a bunch of weight, 2) Go To College 3) Own My Own Harley Sportster 4) Go to Europe 5) swim with the sharks (small tame ones of course) 6) Run a Marathon with my Dad and sisters 7)Witness my Kids having kids 8)Take karate

8 Things I Have Learned From my Past:
1) Your Family and friends are all you have in this life 2) Don't Judge someone unless you have walked a mile in their shoes 3) Nothing compares to the love of a mother except only the love that Heavelny Father has for you 4) No matter how hard life gets, you will always wake up the next day 5) We May Not Have It All Together but Together we have It All 6) Never loose your sence of humor, it will get you through the rough times 7) Money does not equal happiness 8) God will Never foresake you if you just ask

8) Places I Would Love to Go or See:
1) Hawaii 2) Mexico 3) Ireland 4) New Zeland 5) Greece 6) Italy 7) France 8) NY, NY

8 Things I Currently Need or Want:
1) A Maid 2) Flat tire on Jogging stroller fixed 3)My Kids to do their stinkin homework 4) a vacation 5) An Ironing Board 6) A Kitchen Table 7) My IPOD replaced 8) 24 to start already, come on...

8) people I tag: Natelli, Charith, Sophia, Juli, Hollie, Meghen, Christi J, Christi B