It finally stopped raining! It rained and rained then snowed quick, then rained and rained, get the idea. It was not pretty! Even the sheep were miserable. Finally it started to snow late yesterday afternoon! I love snow when it is fluffy and white, not slimy and gray!
Good News, Sophie is doing better, last week was not fun for her.
Not So Good News, Wes and Gracie are super sick today. Especially Wes, he can't even move. Poor Fella!
Good News, the floors are mopped and vacuumed and the dishes are done!
Good News, we have someone seriously interested in our lot that is for sale in Iowa.
Not So, It will be hard to let it go.
Good News, Wes and I are going to visit Iowa when it sells. We want to go see the lot as just a lot. We never got to see it completely cleaned up.
Good News, my tires do fabulous in the snow!
Not so, I still can't believe that they cost 1000.00!
Good News, I am over all the Not So!
We had a "Moment" this weekend. Wes and I were talking about how much we missed certain things about our house in Iowa. We both agreed that it breaks our hearts to know it is not there anymore. We were naming what we missed, and i happened to look over at Hayden. He had tears in his eyes and rolling down his cheeks. When I asked him what was wrong, he couldn't speak. he kept saying just a minute. He doesn't like us to hear him cry so He was trying to collect himself. Finally he said he just missed the house and he missed Iowa. He said it felt like home. He missed us as a family out there.
This is a moment I will keep on the surface of my memory for a while, and think about and use as a reminder. The significance of Hayden crying, and sharing his feelings is a big deal because he has been very quiet about the hurt. He has bottled up his feelings and tried to move on.
He did open up one other time. We were driving in the car. Out of the clear blue he said "you know at the end of Lord of the Rings, when Frodo goes back to the Shire." "Yes, I remember" I said. "Well I feel like frodo felt,because of the tornado." OK, if you haven't seen LOTR's, Frodo saw everyone laughing, dancing and celebrating the end to saron. People tried to get Frodo to join in the celebration. But because of the part that Frodo played in the story, baring such a huge burden he found it hard to identify with all the celebrating. Because of the battle Frodo fought, he was changed forever. It took a big tole on him to destroy the ring. And all though it was a great thing to have made it through the battle successfully and still alive he was a changed person. Anyway, that is Hayden's interpretation of the movie. And that is how he was trying to express to us how he feels. He is bright. He is sensitive and he thinks and ponders things. As his Mother I just hope and pray that I can help him heal the right way so that there isn't any long term damage of hurt. I am so grateful when he chooses to open up and share his feelings with us.
I mentioned that he missed the way our family was in Iowa. For those of you who don't know, We really only had each other out there. We didn't have all kinds of family there like we do here. So we depended on each other for everything. He misses that, and I need to keep in mind ways for us as a family to share that same closeness here. It's difficult because we do have so much family and friends. We don't depend enough on each other. I don't know if any of this makes any sense at all to any of you, but it is of huge importance for me to remember this little moment that Hayden allowed Wes and I to share with him.
4 comments:
We love LOTR! I can really see how he would relate to Frodo. What a very tender and bright boy! I also know how you feel about being away from family and friends. When you don't have family close by, you rely on your ward family. I know I would not be as involved with my ward and all the people in my neighborhood, if I was always hanging with the family. Don't get me wrong, I love my family, but it is nice to only have eachother Sunday evening and most weekends. :)
What an insightful kid! I love the analogy with LOTR. You should definitely write down a few of the things you did together as a family in Iowa and try doing them together here as well as start some new!
Wow Erin, Hayden is such a great kid! What a mind he has. I completely understand what you mean about your family becoming closer in Iowa. We too have felt the same way living away from family and friends for so long. You just become your own seperate family and that is what becomes the most important thing. Thanks for the reminder!
WOW! Hayden is so insightful. He's just such a bright boy, but then again you know that. It's a testament to how amazing his folks are, me thinks!
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