When I say entrusted I really feel like he has done such amazing things for my family and I, that I have a responsibility to share what has happened and what I've learned. I feel some pressure.
Sunday I had the opportunity to address our church congregation. I stood up and I froze. All of the sudden the feelings and thoughts that I was experiencing were to overwhelming to share. My tongue was tied, I couldn't make out what my note cards said, I felt like if I were to speak I was going to be baring my most interpersonal soul....so strange being that I have already spoken 2 times prior to this.
In High School I was on the Debate team, and amongst other things, I competed in extemporaneous speaking. If you don't know what that is, I will explain. You are given a random topic and expected to be able to go in front of judges within 10 or so minutes. Your goal is to give a speech on the topic... and, if you have no idea what the topic is... you better make them believe you do! I always did very well, mostly because I read every Newsweek and Time Magazine I could get a hold of...and, anything else.
I relay this because, standing up on Sunday to tell everyone of the blessings and miracles I had witnessed and the lessons learned was the hardest thing I have had to do in a long time. I don't no if I let my nerves get the best of me....not really my nature to be nervous. I don't know if satan got the best of me, or if maybe there were people who did not want to hear what I had to say.....or maybe it was some kind of lesson I am supposed to learn. What ever it is I don't regret standing up, I know there was a reason, what the reason is ...not sure. I imagine I will know sometime, I will keep reflecting on it and maybe it will come to me.
Wes gave a beautiful talk after me. He so very eloquent. My two beautiful children also spoke a few things. Hayden's was very tender. He expressed the fact that he was grateful that we had the tornado room. Which is a huge deal. Everyone that came to see our house when we first bought it would laugh when they saw that shelter. They would all say "you will never need that" In Hayden's eyes and mine we can see that shelter was a gift from God...A Tender Mercy sent to us, our saving Grace. Gracie got up and spoke. She mentioned that the tornado was the day before memorial day, and paused and said "We were almost apart of Memorial Day" very a matter of fact-ly... it brought the house down, it was so cute.
In honor of our anniversary we all went Saturday and each picked out a tree to plant. So many big beautiful trees were lost to the world that day... we wanted to give back. Hopefully we will plant them tomorrow and I can put up some pics.
I am grateful for this world of blogging... it is so therapeutic. I may even sleep tonight, I am emotionally exhausted. Love to all ~E
1 comment:
i love that you guys are planting trees! what a great way to remember that day.
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