Thursday, April 30, 2009

Keep On, Keepin' On.

I am very tired! Being a single Mom this week has been challenging! Thank Heavens Wes will be home tomorrow night! Bless all the single parents in the world, seriously what a hard job. Everyday this week I faced a different obstacle. But, that being said, each one has taught me a lesson about myself. At the present time I am having to sensor myself because recently my blog has been used against me, not only do I have to worry about strangers reading it but also people I know waiting for me to slip up once so they can swoop in and cause trouble. How sad. Enough said.

Weight Watchers this week has helped me maintain. I am so glad. Because of some issues going on this week I would have turned to food if not for Weight Watchers. However I did struggle Tuesday and blew all 35 weekly points. This means anything extra this week has to come from exercise points. No big deal, I can do it.

H1N1 Flu, pandemic....really? I am thinking why not just shut all schools down for 10 days. I feel like between the Government and the media...who do you trust. I feel like just keeping my kids home, I don't want the flu. Too bad the kids are core testing this week and next! I left Wes a text today and told him to rent a car and drive home. I don't want him flying on a plane! I think he'll fly anyway. Am I the only one feeling this way?

May 1st is just around the corner, like less than 2 hours away! Oh. My. Heck. It's been almost a year since the Tornado. The days are feeling strange because I am remembering exactly what we did each day a year ago. It is so strange, it's like I am counting down. We are starting to think of ideas about how we will commemorate the day (May 25). I think we will plant a tree or something along those lines. Just thinking about it puts a lump in my throat. The day brought so much depth to our lives, I can't even begin to explain the feelings I have right now. Because of that day, I live my life so much differently than I did before. It's kind of ,before I was living in 2-d. And now I am living life in 3-D. That's the best I can explain it. Everything has taken on new meaning to me. Family, unconditional love, pain, material wants and needs. True Friends, compassion, service, sadness, strength, testimony, life, prayer, Mother nature, the power to endure. It's all been magnified one way or another and I am so very grateful for that. I love and live intensely now because I know it can all be taken away so quickly. At the end of the day the most important thing is not the car you drive, how big your house is, the amount of money you have in the bank or not in the bank. It's all about how you lived your life that day in Comparison to Christ. I am not perfect, I have so much more to learn. I am grateful for everyday I have to keep on keepin' on. ~E

5 comments:

Jenelle said...

I love your posts! Who's stirin' up trouble? I'll get 'em! Okay, so I just changed my facebook to the English-pirates setting and it's kinda fun. Anyway, blogging should be a way for you to just be yourself and say what you think and feel. I realize that we all have "unrighteous" moments that may need a bit of a filter, but it's so nice to read something that is real. I think we over sensor ourselves sometimes to the point that others can't really get to know the real us. I was unaware that anyone reading my blog was in a position to judge me. If everyone would be a bit more honest, like your posts, I think people may just find themselves a little bit happier and less stressed. We'd be relatable and not so tired from putting on a show. Maybe I just shouldn't comment at midnight after a long day... Oh, and holy cow! A year almost? I swear I just got the news and started trying to find you clothes and then the sirens went off while I was in the middle of the street in Waterloo. Time flies and I'm glad ya'll are doing well. :)

Natelli Johnston said...

great post! love ya

Avry said...

Well if your blog is being used against you then the person who is using it is JEALOUS of you! ;)
You are who you are.. and that is AWESOME. You aren't trying to be something you aren't & that is what I like about you! Keep up the posts it keeps my mood up more than you think. :)
Today is a new day on Weight watchers..YOU CAN DO IT!! Food is the devil isn't it? such temptation. I tell myself if I can eat healthy for 5 days then on the 6th day I reward myself!
Hang in there girl just know you ARE an inspiration to so many people!

Ruth said...

I love your posts. We missed you Tuesday, I remember Wes was out of town and figured something came up. I always feel uplifted when I read your blog, so thank you.

Anonymous said...

You are an inspiration to me! I'm so glady you are safe and sound here in Utah with your sweet, wonderful family. I don't know what I would do without any of you!
Love,
Mama Kristi